Messed Up

I know that I messed up. 

I know that I can't take back the bad choices I have made.

I know he hurt you.

I know you will forever be scarred by the things he said and did.

Every day of my life, I wish I could take those days away.

Every day of my life, I wish I could get back the days I lost with you because of him.

Yet, I also know, I can't blame him alone.

I did it too.

I messed up. 

My bad choices hurt the only ones I was supposed to keep safe...

I messed up....

and now you hurt...

I have a hard time forgiving him but even a harder time forgiving myself.

I love you.

I am sorry.

I hope someday you find it in your heart to forgive me...

I messed up....

bad.

:(